now the house is really gonna be so quiet.
both the precious brothers are not coming home anytime soon.
one is far away in the sunny country of Hawaii, the other's in stay-in camp far at Lim Chu Kang. not fair.. i want my brothers back...

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i wanna be a cocoon.
so that i can snuggle up and watch the world go by without the world seeing me.

i wanna be a yellow jelly bean.
so that i can just look nice and to not have any feelings except being loved.

i wanna be a stone.
so that i can stone.

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Met up with the prettaye Zhen Ling for lunch today and to discuss the sketchings. FOS was a disappointment tho.

I had a splinter in my index finger this afternoon, and it was annoyingly painful. I spent almost 1/2hr biting my lip and swearing under my breath as i tried to use the tweezer to pluck it out. Finally, i called out to Daddy to help me. see how stubborn i was... argh. I saw Him on the cross with a million splinters on his body... i smiled and thanked Him. Then i took a breath and with an easy stroke, i pulled the damn splinter out. Then i kept it for 20minutes for souvenier's sake. =)


"I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees You."
Job 42:5

don't you just love rainy nights?

stayed home the whole day today... its no joke when loneliness and boredom creeps up to you...
even blasting music, eating junk food and watching tv all day wont do any help...

how i wish you were here...

on the lighter note, specs is going fine
i'm just afraid i wont meet up to my own expectations of myself as well as to other's...
i dont want any disappointment
that's why i'm reminding myself every time failure occurs, that my Jesus is BIGGER than all the shit i went through =)

i'm so looking forward to Campus tmr. even tho i turned down a one-day job offering me $150 for an AP's position tmr, i still feel good about it. thats what the hunger for God does to you. everything else in the entire world becomes dim, except for the Light of Jesus =)

i think hot milo, a thick and warm blanket to cuddle into and some good company would do me some good now...



btw, Fuk Xing Luk's bloggie is up, do sneak a peak.
http://fukxingluk.blogspot.com/

For instance....

you woke up late from a lazy Thursday afternoon nap.
you are LATE for Thursday Bible Study.
you dont even bother to bathe, just the bare neccesities and *poof* you are by the road trying to get a cab.
its 6.30pm. the doors are open. people are pouring into the auditorium and you are still unable to get a cab.
after a gruelling 30mins, you FINALLY get into a cab.
the cab uncle decides to relacccccc, and go by the loooooooong roooouuutteee.. at 50km/hr
your eyes are fixed on the jumping meter. your heart rate increases with the fare.
you mumble curses under your breath when he purposely slows down when he sees an orange light.

FINALLY, you reach your destination.
you throw the EXACT amount at the uncle and speed off to the auditorium.
the ushers dont let you in cos you dont have a seat.
plus, the overflow rooms are overflowing too.
you manage to get in only after Praise&Worship.
and you sit with the kids in the foyer.

you are soooo distracted ad annoyed with the kids who are running about that you hardly pay attention to the sermon.
before you know it, service is over.

you go home alone.
empty.
wondering why on earth you made such a mad rush in the first place.
"could have just slept all the way through dinner and wake up for midnight supper", you are thinking.

___ end of scene ___

sometimes, we pay attention to all these little issues, that we often forget the real reason of going to church and even the simple matter of handing the problem to Daddy.

why give your attention and time and effort to the stupid works of the devil when you can turn your eyes unto the Lord and listen to Him sing to you while he gets a cab for you as well as priority-book the best seat in the House of God?

by harping on the useless rotten works of the devil, you give attention to the situation, making it worse. "Too many cooks spoil the broth" i'm sure its a familiar phrase. you worry and worry and worry and stress and stress and stress over it, and in the end you spoil it. you have yourself to blame!

learn to sit back, (on the best seat in the House of God, at His right Hand), enjoy the breeze of His presence and love, and have the time of your life. =)

my first post.

hopefully it stays alive for long.

Open up the heavens
Let Your Glory fall...