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i feel like such a hypocrite.

fuck

and so...

the night ended on a high note, with Karen and i squeezing with all the barangbarang at the back of Grace's van. It was a night of crazy crazy silly fun. the kind i haven't had in quite a while! we had so much drinks leftover that we gave the next table a full jug and still had plenty leftover! oh and Loof is the next chillout place. =D

I've had so much fun on this set, and got to know many many more people.. and truly, the Lord's fingerprints were so evident in every single thing that I laid my hands on. =)

Not to mention, Michel De Mesa!!!!! ohgosh, i'm smiling already. hahahaha! he's such a charmer, i tell you. In fact, not only the ladies. Hossan was moved to tears backstage too.. It was just such a wonderful feeling to know that we made their day, but just merely buying them a $2 ticket. Truly, the best audience i've seen so far. =)

I have one entire free week before Adventure Camp next week on the 18th Dec. this means time for myself and the Lord and time to... shop for camp stuff!! gosh, its so exciting! it's finally here! =D I just cant wait to see God's manifestations in everyone's lives. and also, to sleep in tents!!! hahahaha, well, not exactly excited about the bathing facilities tho. hees..

ok, I think i need to start making a to-do-list for this week.. and first on the list, would be to:

GET MORE SLEEP.



alrights.
goodnight world,
goodnight you,
goodnight everyonestillonmsnat3:57am,

goodnight Daddy.
I love You.

the Lord leads =)

Lord, is it really possible?

that if i take that step, You will carry me through the rest of the journey?

that You can touch their hearts and set them free, free from a lifetime of being bound by religion?

I dont know, Lord.. i'm so afraid. Do i really still....

heck, know what.

If it's from the Lord, He leads.

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nothing fancy, really.

I just want people whom i love to love me with the love of God, and to sincerely celebrate the day. Not just because they have to, but because the Holy Spirit tells them to do so. with the love of God in their hearts.

Lord, You know exactly what and how i want it to be like. You know who and where should it be. You take care of it, and i know its gonna be a blast. =)

3 more days

how are you?

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oh Lord! i'm so nervous that my hands are cold..

this always happens to me when i have huge and important responsibilities on me!

going down my checklist again and again, i keep thinking i'm missing out on something..

ok, i give up.

Daddy, You know my heart. You take over.


on the other hand, i had a great day today. =)

argh!

what would You have done?

Is it wrong to feel that way?

or is it right?

Is it right to just not bother about her, or should i love and care for her by telling her off?

oh Lord, help.

I've been blog-surfing and it just makes me wanna blog about the bursting goodness of God, and what He has done in my life. But each time i wanna start, i just go blank! maybe because Daddy overwhelmed me too much that i became speechless. or maybe because i was not so good in my english that i didn't know how to put it down to words. or maybe it was simply because i was too lazy. hahaha..

Well, i decided not to let the idiotic devil get in my way of reaching out to others who might chance upon my blog and get blessed by my testimonies! =)

The Lord has opened my eyes to a whole new meaning to speaking in tongues. and i'm addicted to it!!! Remember how when you were young, you would have this "secret" way of communicating with your best friend, so that no one else could understand what you guys were talking about? It would feel so good when only the two of you would know that you were checking that cute guy out. and you both would feel like paris hilton and nicole richie. (how everyone around you envies your friendship, and how everyone will envy your RICHES)

Well, that's how we all are with Jesus. our secret way of communicating? SPEAKING IN TONGUES. simple as that. =) absolutely NO ONE will understand what you are talking about!

erm, unless some idiot invents a "tongue-breaker" machine which could convert the language of tongues into English. but i highly doubt that person could come out of his/her dungeon-of-inventions alive. cos he/she will be too shocked at the Goodness that we (the present Prince and Princesses of the Most High God), are praying for the future, that he/she would just smash up the machine and be slain. and after he/she wakes up, he/she will come to New Creation Church and accept Christ!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay, back to the topic. Basically, when you pray in tongues, you speak to Daddy in the most intimate manner any man could ever think of. you bear your heartfelt feelings and thoughts that you never knew exsisted. this is when Daddy takes care of it, and exchanges it for the overwhelming Peace in your heart. The Peace that can never be explained in words, the Peace that gives you the knowledge that He reigns in your life, and there's nothing my God cannot do. =)

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Just the other day while waiting for the bus at night, i saw a couple walking down the street, hand in hand. they were so deep in conversation and so engrossed in each other, and it seemed like nothing else in the world matters anymore. In front of them, there was a pillar and they parted hands just to avoid the pillar. all this while, they were still talking and laughing. after they passed the pillar, their hands sub-consciously found each others' and it was interlocked once again.
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This is a perfect example of our relationship with Daddy. In this complexed world of stress, worries, condemnation (the list goes on...) all we, as precious children of God, have to do, is to cultivate and acknowledge the EXISTANCE of Daddy beside us, and Daddy's BIG, warm, comfortable soft Hand automatically finds ours and interlocks it with ours, grabbing it ever so tightly with reassurance and love...

"...I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved."
"For I, the Lord your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, 'Fear not, I will help you.'"

and i believe that Daddy's always at my right hand, cos the right hand symbolises the stronger hand (for right-handers, that is) and Him taking over my right hand means that Daddy takes over my self efforts and takes over!!! AMEN!!
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Daddy, i'm still in absolute awe of how much You have already done, in just a matter of 3 weeks into the yr of 2007! I really anticipate how i would be by the end of 2007! woooo!!! =D

I love You so much, but i know You love me so much more...